Maybe it is the process and not its reward when it comes to HAPPINESS.
It is true, we all can remember HAPPY MOMENTS in our lives, moments when we just received those dear Yule Gifts that we had long wished as children, or that first graduation from school, or that first kiss, first night of love with another dear human being... Oh my, there can be so many of those First Moments with different Events, with different (Meaningful) People, etc...
The fight of all life for most of us all, is "to remain/to stay relevant", and also, to pay for for own own keep... And then, to try hard to enjoy the ride from cradle to grave.
There is a plenty of waiting and we all know there will be also lots of unwelcome things and unwelcome people.
However the show always goes on and we manage to get to another day, another night and well, it is the pursuance of Happiness, even though once we find HER within the tangibles of a thing or of a person, or of an event, or of a situation, it always changes, it always shifts sooner or later and always to another place, to another thing, to another person, to another situation, etc.
We get to do it all over again and again until our own show ends.
And it is O.K. as long as We keep it honest, real and true to our own selves!
And to be quite honest, it is just the way it is.
If/when we are and remain Real & True to Our own Selves, we in fact make decisions that reflect our true will, our own selves and the real "what and who" which we really and truly wish, desire and want.
Therefore, when we do get that "something" or that "somebody", or that "event", or that "situation", well, it is always in fact True Happiness, which is always in Harmony with our True will, and equally in peaceful Harmony with our own honesty to our own selves and also to our own natural wishes and desires in life.
And surely, outward circumstances have no power over that type & level of Happiness.
Because, it abides in us and stays with us as it happens, however the elemental event thereof, the thing, the person, or whatever it may be, it is temporary!
Because it all will pass, the feeling will pass, much similar to when we get, or when we receive a much desired Yule Gift, chiefly as when children...
The feeling changes, the Gift, whatever it may happen to be, it shifts its level of relevance in our hearts and minds.
True Happiness can always be experienced, chiefly with the Mastery of our own Selves which is always required in order TO BE, and also, TO REMAIN "Honest and true" to our own selves and to our own Nature, and of course, also to our True will, our wishes and desires.
But as I wrote before, Happiness never stays too long anywhere.
And people, and things, events, situations, they all have to be more like the Future and the Past.
Because they both, they always keep on "Re-inventing Themselves", in order to offer a New and Fresh version of this ever-changing Now and Here.
And so that We All can again keep on Finding our Truest Will, our infinite and eternal Nature which is made of Changes, and all of that as if it were the first time.
Me? I feel that I am quite peaceful with Myself, however in order to do that, I try hard to become as one with the Changes which Happiness is made of.
Happiness is free, is infinite, and is eternal...
Eternal? But doesn't it seem Contradictory?
No! Happiness is eternal, it is We who must grow up and evolve in order to keep up with Her in the requirements of our own Nature, our Life, our True will, our Wishes and Dreams!
It is not upon Her the burden or the gift, the cursing or the blessing of Evolution.
That it is always upon us all. And we own, and we are also responsible for that.
Although similar to us all and everything that exist, Happiness, She is made of infinite and eternal Changes.
Nobody owns Her!
We simply enjoy Her delicious and delightful company.
We can only be blessed by Her presence in our lives when the choices that we make are real, honest and true to our own selves.
Yes, the show is real and with our Species, it may be brutal...
But the journey from cradle to grave is temporary.
Evolution is the Blessing of all real and true Happiness.
None of us can really and truly deny the fact that during the course of our journeys from cradle to grave, our Happiness also becomes attached to our "Wishes and Dreams".
Others before us have written tidbits of ordinary Wisdom such as - "Your true Home is where your heart is at"...
Our hearts are mostly at our wishes and at our dreams, chiefly when focused that way as it is quite common.
But it also causes plenty of Unhappiness, Disappointments and Frustrations.
Because there is a time and a place for all people, for all things and for all events.
Albeit, we all have been living in an Instant-Coffee and Instant-Everything Culture, a world where Arts have becomes bubble-gum-lite, values and ways of conduct have to limit and to subtract themselves for the sake of primitive mythology/religion, primitive country/politics, primitive business/jobs and an exaggerated devotion to children. And couple with it all, people do not like to WAIT for anything nor anybody.
Amidst this Cultural Paradigm of Exaggerated Social Claims, Standings and Expectations, it becomes very easy to lose one's HAPPINESS.
As Happiness becomes equated with Wishes and Dreams and also with most people's Unrealistic Expectations.
Don't get me wrong, Magick, Wonders and Miracles still happen, oh yes, but not all the time, at all places and to everybody at once.
So the Cultivation of one's own true Happiness, as a graceful state of our peaceful and harmonious Inner Selves, such is the key to hold on to the True Happiness which puts us first and not our Elemental wishes and dreams of this temporary world and of this journey from cradle to grave.
Again, the bottom line is Evolution.