The way you made me feel tore my heart in pieces.
I used to believe in love, I used to believe in friendships
Loyalty and togetherness, to be always there when you needed me.
I wanted so badly to have someone who sees me as more than I see myself
To believe in me, because I didn’t believe in myself.
I sometimes wonder if all those things you said were true?
Or did you just want to keep me around, to beat loneliness.
With every waking moment I sink deeper and deeper into my shadow.
Love to me has become just an illusion, a child’s game of pretend.
For lonely people looking for some hope in a dark and cold world.
Love to me has become a fairytale with a bad ending, where the princess dies.
Just like in the little mermaid where she drops in the sea the morning after his wedding.
Love is nothing more than just a second hand emotion, a physical sensation.
Here to deceive us that life is something more than just a meaningless play.
There was a time in the past I believed in love, even in soulmates
I believed in friendships that lasted forever, in people that knew and loved you inside and out.
What an utopian vision of life that is, it did made me feel good I admit
Thought it crumbled like a deck of cards at an open window.
True love isn’t supposed to hurt on purpose, betray and deceive.
Yet it did, over and over again. I have no more tears to cry.
I have nothing more in me to give, and I cant forgive anymore.
I have tried many times, I was always the fool in the end.
Every time I try my heart breaks a little bit more.
There hasn’t been anyone I loved with all of me, that hasn’t proved to me
That love only hurts, that love is an illusion.
Every time I open myself, a knife is stuck in my heart,
I can’t hurt anymore; I can’t do this anymore.
The walls around my heart slowly harden, the ice thickens
I don’t want it to be, I also want to have someone who cares,
The fact is there is no one who I trust enough to allow near.
Trust has been taken away from me, over and over again.
May be one day I will be able to feel it again.
But until than I will be hiding in my own personal ice palace.
Safe from hurt and safe from love.