A day out... I don't put on clothes much these days, so when I do, it's an event. lol. In this case, I needed to go to the Dr.'s to get my CPAP machine for the sleep apnea and go to the mall drugstore... So, an occasion, to put on clothes.

The trip wore me out, and thankfully I won't have to go back for a while, someone else can drop off the machine chip with my info…

The rainbow over my street today

came bright and brilliant

in the asphalt scented air

as the rain brought the perfume

of the sun

from spring warm…

Your relationship with yourself is not all that different from your relationship with other people. In fact, what kind of relationship you have with yourself will influence your existing relationships with others.

One of the most important things you can do in life is have a loving relationship with yourself, like any relationship, relationships take work on an ongoing…

A suspended member has sent you a message on Temple Illuminatus.  Bunny of a honey (rockneasterbunny@yahoo.com) writes:



Lelia, your funny.. Do you really think im not on there right now lol ? Please.. and fyi.. I dont care if any of your members join anywhere.. that is not the point, I have contempt, not hate, annoyance not rage, at your ethics, the way you try to work your charm and spam silently using links, adding the same ass…

Beautiful day today... Last year when the roses started blooming, I awoke one morning to the cooing of a dove, sitting amongst the blood red buds of my roses. The dove came and went a few times, and soon was spotted with a mate. Over the winter I didn't see them.

This Easter Monday, the doves have returned, together, cooing and pecking in the seed under the birdfeeders.

So beautiful, pretty little pale ring necked doves...

I didn't get a great shot of them, hard to do…

On another site a curious person writes and asks me about the Temple. "Hi there, I'm interested in learning more about your site Temple Illuminatus, I've been thinking of joining another site, and maybe leaving this one, as I don't have a lot of time to spend online."

I reply "Why are you thinking of leaving here?"

The curious person, "well, all the sites I've been on, this one included, people are so judgemental, opinionated, there's a lot of people that are just crazy or…

Warrior boys

I have always sought them

or them me.

They are not for everyone to see

they hide, in men.

Warrior for some, evokes thoughts

of violence, action, cruelty, and hate

but warriors are nothing of that

it’s balance and peace…

First time in many months I've bothered to take pictures of myself. However, it's been the first time in a long time that I've been out of the house.

Had to go to the Dr.'s, sleep specialist, about my breathing/sleeping issues. It seems even my sleep disorders are disordered, as it's not typical apnea, but some kind of other thing... anyways, treatment approach is the…

Today or in the next few days I'll create a page outlining our policies in regards to everything from free speech, and dealing with controversial humour, controversial subjects, dealing with perceived prejudices and even outright hate literature, etc. To make a more clear statement on my policies and view on this.

To be honest, I've been unsure where I wanted to draw the lines in the sand exactly myself, and how I wanted to really deal with the issues of balancing freedom of…

Before I even get to the 300+ messages in the mailbox, I want to take some time to process, and I do that best by blogging.

I want to start by saying this site and it's members mean a lot to me, and it was hard to be away from it for a few days, but it was also good for me too. I can be very protective and I can also be a work-a-holic and tend to push myself on projects far more than I should. Like most people, in any state of health, if you push yourself too hard, you'll make…

These are brief thoughts of mine on the various different ideas of multiple dimensions floating around out there. I have seen theories of 7 dimensions. Theories of 9 dimensions. Theories of 11 dimensions. Theories of 13 dimensions... etc. There are physics dimensional theories like the 11 or 12 dimensional models in string theory. In physics we supposedly live in a 4 dimensional…