I found this art therapy exercise on YouTube via a channel called "IABET- Consciousness Through Art." In combination with my personal therapist I started creating a series of similar art using this or similar methods. 

You can locate the video here: youtu.be/TcGPc80f2VM

I attempted this in the spring when I had been struggling a great deal with my submissive identity and its seeming incongruency with certain core spiritual values and decided to try and use this method to understand both how I felt about and interpreted Dominance, as well as what I felt a Dominant was to me. This was the end result of my little jerry-rigging experiment. Once again it was very awkward, but after completing this piece I felt relieved and comforted in a way I hadn't for a very long time. I'm also going to post one for submissive/submission.

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Hello subconscious emotional manifestation of how I interpret Dominant/Dominance!

- [feelings of smiles and laughter]

What should I call you?
- I have no name.

Why are you here?
- I bring peace.

Do you have something to teach me?
- Balance.

Hmnn I thought you were gonna say obedience...
- Obedience is a tool. Balance is the objective.

Okay, why balance?
- [smile] In time you'll understand.

...Is there anything else I need to know or that you need to tell me?
-Breathe. It's okay to cry.

Alright....What do you see?
- [Laughter] Those secrets are mine to keep curious one.

.... is there something you see that isn't a secret and you can tell me? 
- What is the function of a door?

Uh... It's a temporary boundary designed to mimic a wall?
- ...

When it's open it's an entrance. When it's closed it's a wall.... Or maybe it's an entrance even when it's closed, you just have to open it?
- ...

After knocking and asking first of course!
- [smile]...

Uh huh, moving on... What is your purpose?
- I serve no purpose, I am. That is enough.

( To myself: I have no clue what that means)

So... What would happen if your door was open?
- I would know and you would see.

What would I see?
- I cannot tell you. [An image of wisteria keeps popping into my brain]

What would you know?
All that I have to teach and all that I have to learn. A door is a threshold. When you cross it you change.

Makes sense, what kind of change?
- The endless kind. The beautiful kind.

Okay, what does Dominance mean to you?
- Growth, change, and evolution. It means finding your strength in the bending and fluid...

Hmn.... What does submission mean to you?
- Everything. It's a symbol like this drawing. It's a manifestation of many meanings and changes. Submission is your will.

Do you have any questions for me?
- Why?

I suppose I'm just being curious again... This is interesting.
-You aren't ready to answer them now. But ask again some day.

You have a key on your face... What does it mean?
- Purple Heart. Wood. It means you. It means submissive.

Wait, I thought keys were a "Dommy" thing?
- Depends on which side of the door you are standing on, doesn't it?

Hmnn someone should tell them that.
- ...

Anyways... Is there anything else you have to say to me?
- Breathe. Keep going. Keep sowing. And let go of convention, it won't serve you and so it won't serve me.

Thank you.
- [smile]


Thoughts:

I don't even know where to begin, but I don't feel super uncomfortable like last time. I do feel nosey though... And amused. This seems like such a silly way to understand yourself better but I guess my curiosity does tend to push for answers at times and this seems more constructive than wallowing in confusion and turmoil. I wonder what others will think of this?